TDE - Ksooga

"At first, I was scared of the Wastelands... but then I put on the mask."

App for an RP group I wanted one with a totally different setting from my one RP group, #Tales-of-Nexus... and I found one I decided to try.

Skelts: 20
Status: Healthy ((for now...))
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Name: Ksooga
Age: 1.5 years old
Gender: Male
Breed: Australian shepherd mix/mutt
Rank: Ward

Personality: Ksooga is a young but shy male who has fears of making eye contact, offending anyone or starting conflict. He is usually timid and quiet, having trouble speaking up when around strangers or when others are speaking too quickly, which can sometimes make him depressed as he often has many thoughts and feelings of his own that he desires to express to others. He frequently tells himself to be stronger and to be more brave around others, building up his self-confidence only for it all to come crashing down once he finds himself facing another canine, causing him to forget all of what he would say or even how to greet them. In such a situation, he will quickly avert his eyes and take on a more submissive position, telling the other canine that he really didn't have anything to say after all and to nevermind it before slouching off to his shelter at the edge of the underground Eden with a heavy sigh. One more day that he couldn't overcome his shyness was yet another wasted day and yet another wasted opportunity.

But what he was without his mask would change once he wore it. Being a ward, Ksooga frequently "escaped" his life as a shy dog into the Wastelands with the Convoys, wearing a mask that hid his face and eyes from all that who looked upon him. While on his job, wearing the mask that hid his face away, he felt less intimidated by the world, despite being in a far more dangerous situation while outside of Eden. Without the threat of eyes and faces, Ksooga had a newfound confidence while working, allowing him to face and speak in a way that he couldn't without his mask. He will fearlessly warn the others of approaching threats in a very objective way as soon as he senses anything out-of-the-ordinary, as if he was a completely different dog than the shy young boy he is in Eden. To Ksooga, making eye contact and speaking in a personal way to be sociable is scarier than the Infection itself.

In a way, what Ksooga fears most is himself, as if his very words could shatter the world and destroy everything. At least when he is working as a ward, he knows his words will be used for good and when he wears his mask, he is just one of the workers and one of the group... instead of the outsider.

Overall, he is very kind-hearted and well-meaning, but can't seem to get close to anyone as he freezes up whenever he is interacting and is easily made nervous. He is also very obedient and does what he is told. However, while in Eden with his mask off, he can be scared of helping others who do not ask for it in case he were to do the wrong thing.

History: Ksooga's life began in a fairly unextraordinary sort of way, with two simple parents that never bothered to know him and three littermates who were all strong-willed and idealistic, driven towards goals since young to become great dogs someday at whatever aspirations they had. As soon as they were grown, they quickly made their way into desired apprenticeships of their dream disciplines, but Ksooga remained on the sidelines. For his entire puppyhood, he never knew what he wished to become and had no ambitions. His siblings confused him; how did they know what they wanted to become so badly when most outside knowledge about the world, such as the Wastelands, were concealed away from them? And yet all of his siblings were happy, goal-oriented dogs who seemed undisturbed by anything... something that he struggled to be like but couldn't find the motivation to be at all. They spoke of their dreams to become this or that, while all he saw in his dreams was a world painted in red, filled with nondescript shapes in surreal lands. If that was all he had in his dreams, what did that mean? It was something that bothered him and made him unsure, diminishing his confidence every day while surrounded by such ambitious siblings.

The day eventually came where he had to choose his job within Eden, a day that he had never looked forward to, despite his siblings' excitement over it. He never was able to decide what he really wanted and was then assigned to the role of ward after being tested with much success on his acute senses. At first, this job assignment horrified Ksooga, knowing that he would be out in the Wastes, a place that was filled with many unimaginable terrors for him, but he did not protest this assignment as he was a good follower of the rules and of authority. But on his first day on the job, he found himself feeling overwhelmed with a very different emotion than what he had ever felt before. There was something about being in the Wastes and wearing his gas mask that affected him in a way he had a hard time describing.

On his first day, he sensed an enemy that none of his seniors had noticed at first and was able to properly warn his convoy of the threat. It surprised all who previously knew him as the quiet, shy dog who never spoke up, and yet here he was... being the almost perfect personality for the job he had been assigned to. Even though he still felt scared while in the Wastelands, he also felt as if he was escaping something while being there and fulfilling some unknown destiny. Despite the fear, he strangely felt as if he had belonged there...

Strengths: As a high-energy herding breed, Ksooga's strengths lie in his agility, speed and stamina. He can keep pace with anyone and travel long distances without getting tired. Also, as a ward, he was selected for his youthful and acute senses that keep him very aware of his surroundings. These two things combine to make his accuracy and agility his strongest stats.
Flaws/Weaknesses: Lacks physical strength and offensive ability in battle; lacks confidence and doesn't trust himself; very shy and doesn't voice his own opinions/feelings very well; scared of everything when his mask is off
Relationships: ((none yet))

RP Example: A red sun loomed over the horizon, setting behind the smoggy air of the Wastelands. From a rocky outcrop, Ksooga watched as yet another day ended before he would have to return to the underworld of Eden for the night. He often wondered what was far beyond this place, how large the world really was and if anywhere existed that was untouched by the Infection on the surface world. When the sun set that night, would it rise for dogs who live in a land of fresh air, clean water and food that had been spared the fate of becoming disease-ridden? Was there a place where puppies could be born and play in the sunlight and green grass in a world without fear? Everything in his life was scary... the entire world was scary. But at least when he was hidden away behind his mask, his sense of self didn't have to matter anymore and all fears evaporated. What was there to fear when he no longer existed?

The day ended and as the sun was dipped halfway beneath the land, Ksooga bounded away from his perch to rejoin the others and return to the depths of Eden. A sun's half circle was much like the land of Eden and the Wastelands; two halves of one whole. There were always two sides... to everything.

Other:
-The design of his face has one side that is white and one that is black, representing his two "masks" of his personality. The white side is his shy side and the black is his brave side.
-When he believes he is really alone and no one is around, he likes to quietly sing lullabies. If he is ever caught, he gets extremely embarrassed.
-The straps on the back of his mask were cut too long so they dangle on the back of his head while he wears it.
-He doesn't like eating in front of other dogs and prefers to eat alone; just way too self-conscious about the way he eats, even though there's nothing wrong with the way he eats.
-When he's outside, he enjoys staring at the sky, wondering if anywhere on the surface exists without the Infection run rampant. How big was the world anyway?
-He is very detached from his siblings and avoids situations that force him to interact with them. They are way too intimidating for him with all of their... enthusiasm.
-He is the only one of his siblings who became a convoy dog.

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